Recently i've taking more and more time and consideration into studying the behavior of those around me, My friend said to me the other day, "i feel weird around really smart people, i can always tell they are thinking about something else while they are talking to me", "Like they have some hidden priority". i wondered if he was talking to me indirectly, cause i asked myself what other smart people does he encounter? I know that slight changes in human behavior towards other humans are most often the result of a conversation that one human had that excluded the other, for instence that same friends girl friend often changes face to me(acts differently), at seemingly random intervals. i know him well and i know that there is more than meets the eye, and im confident that he is telling her about his secret interpitations of me, little does he know that she blows all his secrets with tiny changes in her behavior. I can tell what has changed in a person when they talk to me consistently, and thus i can inductivly(reasoning based on probability) guess what it took to make that change and thus, in essence i can infer what the nature of the conversation was and what it approximatly contained, i can also tell if the conversation happened between an individual and itself or any others which may have been involved. i'm not trying to seem all paranoid, people talking about is not always a bad thing. anyway i just think that it is interesting how people assume that you are as ignorant as they are. People will doubt your abilities if they cannot do it themselves, people tend to be ignorant to there own weakness which in itself works to double-up that weakness. Im certainly not a fool. your actions define you, not your thoughts or feelings, find me someone who can match my will power and i will employ more than my minimum effort. the people around me more often than not require a "layman's" interpetation of my real thoughts and feelings, i just get "slack jawed mouth breething" type reactions when i have to explain something deep or technical.
Coat-tailors and imbicials, it seems im the only person around who has the ability to see how im preforming insufficiently and change it, other people would rather have it changed for them, or wait for some technology to make it easy, or just never to do anything about it, those last ones are the worst, they see the problem and they feel overwhelmed by it, or maybe dont see it as a problem, or maybe they think thats just who they are "i just have this problem that bothers people consistently, and im never going to address it even if everyone ends up hating me for it". you only have one life, and every moment you spend not improving yourself is a moment wasted, for in this very limited life, you have only three goals which amount to the fabled "meaning of life" Define who you are(your ultimate dreams and expectations) and how your going to accomplish those, then doing it. that is the only way your life will ever be valuable, life is not valuable in itself, the energy which went into your creation could have been used more productivly, or productivly at all would be a good start. you may ask about animals then "how are animals justified in living then, if they have no dreams and asspirations" and i say that is a stigma that is absolutly not true, the animal asspirations amount to two simple concepts which they rarely fail to accomplish, survive to pass on my genes, thus producing an exponentail growth of survival, and less and less urgency to do so, any animal that does not do those things is now extinct or will die and never be seen again. And thus will be the fate of all humans who fail to adjust even the slightest of contradictions in their behavior. Any way only like a sigle person will ever read this... uhhh what a sick world im lost in.